Being diagnosed with the famous breast cancer is past bad news for me.
At the time I found it hard to go on with life just as I used to before.
Life seemed different, shorter.
I noticed finer details than I did before as it had dawned on me that, in life, anything can happen without a moment’s notice.
Most of the days going through breast cancer were outright brutal especially the days after getting chemo. The day of chemo was uneventful.
I thank God the cancer was in the early stages even though it was fast growing and in my lymph nodes.
Making a final decision to go through chemo was challenging for me and the thought of it made me shiver. I knew I had no other option, and I had to face my fears.
Friends and family were right by me through it all, always praying and reassuring me. Some people felt sorry that I had to go through it. But we all know as Christians some things just happen.
I didn’t like the whole idea and as I thought about the days leading up to the first chemo treatment, these were some thoughts running through my mind:
- I will lose all my hair (well I never liked my hair anyway, it’s too fine)
- It will weaken my immune system
- I’m not going to able to eat
- What if I can’t sleep
- What if I get sick from the chemo
- What if my white blood count is too low
Despite all the questions running through my mind, I knew, that I knew my Heavenly Father was with me in an almost tangible way. I didn’t want to cope but to thrive during this time and I knew this would leave me stronger than I ever was before.
A verse from the Bible gave me hope during that time (2011).
“We are confident that God is able to orchestrate everything to work toward something good and beautiful when we love Him and accept His invitation to live according to His plan” (Romans 8:28).
I’ll end with this quote by Corrie Ten Boom,
“Although the threads of my life have often seemed knotted, I know, by faith, that on the other side of the embroidery there is a crown..”